Thoughts on turning 36
Reflecting tonight on the fact that I’m turning 36 in exactly 2 weeks… 36… How did that happen??? Life at nearly 36 sure doesn’t look any way I ever pictured it but I am oh so grateful for where I am today especially compared to where I was just a couple years ago.
It’s not easy to step out of your comfort zone, it’s not easy to let go of a million and one regrets, it’s not easy to face past trauma’s, it’s not easy to overcome fears, comparisonitis, people-pleasing, self-sabotage patterns, it’s not easy to learn how to stop letting anxiety control your life, it’s not easy to stop playing small, it’s not easy to put yourself out there…
It takes a lot of courage, a lot of work, a lot of forgiveness, a lot of healing, a lot of prayer, a good bit of therapy and coaching, a ton of personal development and daily deciding to make the choice to rise up regardless of how you feel… (and some days it’s hard to rise up and I still fall down and fail all the time but I keep choosing to get back up.)
It’s not easy… but I don’t want easy… I want joy, I want flow, I want to know before I die that I lived, I loved, I mattered, I made a difference, and that I have no regrets anymore.
The things that matter most in the world don’t come easy and that’s why they mean so much… I’m grateful, blessed, humbled and proud, darn proud of myself for how far I have come just in the past 2 years especially. And I am excited… I’m excited about another year and more chances to live, love, and make an impact.
Whatever’s holding you back, I hope you find the courage, the hope, the belief to take that first step, to start letting go and stop playing small. The world needs you to shine your light just as badly as you need to be able to shine it. (Copyright. Misty Kearns 2017)